What is Life About?

 

picture1Life is fragile. It can break us or make us. It can leave you without a warning or it stays until the fulfillment of our purpose. Life in itself is unfathomable. But what we are capable of knowing is that: life is short. So short it is that you and I should embrace and give it importance.

Be truthful but nice at the same time. Stop complaining, start doing. Pray and hope. Speak life. Don’t lie. Love people. Appreciate the sky and its ever moving and changing nature. Create beautiful things and beautify the world. Be kind and remember that everything you do has a ripple effect. Don’t worry. Stop bringing drama, start giving laughter and joy to someone. Inspire others.

Life is about relationship. It is never about material things. It is never about achievements. It is about how you smile when someone needs your smile. It is about helping others when someone loses hope. It is about you and me in this world, loving and caring one another, looking out for each other, taking time to talk to each other, taking time to appreciate everyone’s life.

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#TwentyFive

My life has been a series of uneventful events (that’s redundant, I know). Through these years, sometimes, I find myself stuck in a hole. Yes, that’s a bit of melodramatic. But yes, my brain is an actual representation of chaos and irony. Thank goodness, I always get back up. I am alive and kicking.

What’s a good idea for a birthday? Well, looking back to life lessons I’ve learned (with funny GIFs) is the most sensible thing to do now because I am not celebrating my birthday.


(1) You are worthy of more. When people do not/ cannot reciprocate the love you’ve given, it does not mean you are unworthy of love but just the opposite, you are worthy of more.


(2) People will cross a river for you if you really mean something to them. If not, they will make invalid excuses, valid.


(3) ‘Wag mong dibdibin ang mga bagay-bagay, kasi wala ka naman nu’n.  Hahahaha. 😀

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(4) When people do not appreciate you, let them. Because there is always someone out there who’ll appreciate and love you more than you can fathom.


(5) It’s not too late to start a new hobby or to stop one.

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or calligraphy… let’s stick to calligraphy…


(6) Conforming is NOT the way to go. Be the difference this world needs. When they ZIG, you ZAG.


(7) Don’t just live, be alive.

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(8) Trust the process! The process may be tedious but it will be worth it in the end.

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(9) Don’t be deaf and blind to the real world. Yes, this world is beautiful but it has also its share of ugliness.


(10) Love does not conquer all. Obviously, that love is human love.


(11) I was made for loving you. That one thing you want is worth the wait. Just wait.


(12) Find a hobby outside your work. It will make a whole lot of difference.


(13) Let us all be a sucker for a man with a beautiful mind not with a beautiful body/face.


(14) God works.


(15) Stop complaining, start doing.

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(16) Everything and everyone is replaceable.


(17) Read more. Through reading, you will open doors of imagination you haven’t tried to see.


(18) We can deny God’s purpose in our life. But we cannot defy His will.


(19) Always speak life.

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(20) Don’t just be good to others, be good to yourself too. Don’t be so hard on yourself.


(21) Yield more to Him.


(22) Forgive.


(23) Let go. Let Him.

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(24) Our life is the light this world needs to see in times of darkness.


(25) Nobody’s gonna love me like He do.


I don’t usually celebrate birthdays because it’s too overrated and I just can’t seem to accept the fact that I’m not in my teenage years anymore. But good thing, I don’t look my age. I look younger than my actual age which is good most of the time but annoying at times.

So that’s it! I have more life lessons however I just need to come up with 25, so there.


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First Year

Recounting the days, the weeks and months… Now, I am down to the greatest achievement of my life.

Last Wednesday was my first year anniversary with my current job. So you ask, what made it an achievement? Well, let me tell you some facts about me:

1.I have never imagined myself to be in the corporate world this long, except when I was younger and dreamed of being a NASA staff.

2.I am a certified introvert. I am not comfortable in any social situation. I feel the awkwardness of a situation wherein I need to speak or just the fact that I need to interact with another human being. It seems not right for me. Well, maybe if the conversation is about arts or books or mental health, no awkward moments.

3. I often imagined myself to be a teacher or a librarian or an artist or a theater actor or a researcher or a writer or a psychologist, anything but a recruiter.

4. I want a job inclined with my passion. But that is not what I am getting.

5. I don’t like mundane work. I don’t like a no-brainer job. I want a job which my brain will work.

I could list more and more facts about me and why I think being in the corporate world for one more year is a greatest achievement. But the point is, I am still alive and kicking.

Being in the corporate world gave me the freedom to choose the uncomfortable. Because if I stayed in the comforts, I will never see the other perspective which I need to learn.

And come to think of it, if I do what I want, will I learn things which are beyond my understanding? Will I learn the things I need to learn? I think not. We learn things by doing the uncomfortable, doing what we don’t like. So yeah, even though I have some frustrations and worries about the job I have, what really matters now is that I am learning. Isn’t it what life all about? Learning until there is nothing left to learn. Learning until our brains stop working. So for now, I am happy that I am learning, gaining knowledge, and knowing potentials.

HAPPY FIRST ANNIVERSARY!!!


Thank you Google for the gifs…. 🙂

Tomorrow’s Another Day

Ok let me share to you this beautiful song which I only stumbled upon browsing facebook (please click the red colored word facebook to watch and listen to the song). I am so glad to hear this song. I think God has His way of revealing Himself to me and most of the time He does that through music.

These past few days, I’ve been really anxious that I started to doubt again everything, my life, my faith, my work, my passion, my talent, as in everything about this world. I hate that feeling and I associate this on the weather. I drowned myself with negative thoughts. I wanted to escape and be back to my safer ground which is writing and reading. But even those things I love doing seems uninteresting anymore. I thought I surpass all those anxious thoughts. But then I was wrong. Because truthfully, ANXIETY is hard to surpass. Every morning, I wake up, feeling not good enough. Every night, before I sleep feels like a happy space because at least even in my 9 hours of sleep I can escape that dreading feeling.

So hearing this song leave me teary-eyed. And I even doubt my own doubts and questioned myself, why am I doubting life again? Why am I doubting God? Why am I thinking sad thoughts? Why am I embracing sadness? Why am I even thinking that I do not belong in this world? When in fact, I belong to God and God alone. Why am I starting to be this fearful girl again? When in fact, God told me to be courageous and He will be there for me wherever I go. Why am I self-pitying? When in fact He told me that I am the apple of His eye.

Yes, I am still anxious, sad and even doubtful. But what I know is this: God loves me and died for me. And I think that is more than enough to keep on going, to keep on dreaming, to keep on pursuing excellence, to keep on blessing other people and to keep on being this woman God wants me to be.

Yes, these are my thoughts. I am not expressive and not even a drama queen. And I do not know why am I publicly posting this where everyone I know can see it. But who knows, someone might be feeling the same way as I am. Remember: “Tomorrow is Another Day.” Another day to truly live a life which counts.

I pray that God will bless every aspect of your life. God bless us all.

One Kind of Being Unkind

Life has its own way of teaching us the lessons we need to learn. It may be by means of challenges or may be an unexpected situation, but most of the time life teaches us in the simplest way possible.


Last Tuesday, I was walking home, I decided to take a peek on National Bookstore’s Warehouse Sale (take a peek: meaning staying at least an hour to touch, smell and thoroughly examine books). I thought I would buy one book, I’ve tried to feel the books but nothing speaks “BUY ME!!!” persistently, so I decided to leave NBS without buying one (and that’s a first).

On my way out of the store, I realized that I am starving, really starving, I saw Wendy’s and immediately ordered my favorite Baconator with fries and drink. Then I left the mall.

I was again walking home when suddenly one little poor teenage boy run to me and ask for my drink. He was holding garlands of sampaguita on his left hand while his right was patting me on my shoulder. With all my might, I ignored him. Yet, he still insisted for the drink I was currently drinking then. I walk past him ignoring all his sentiments. He insistently ask for the drink until he had given up all hope for the drink. Then, he left my side.

I thought I would be safe that evening. However, right after he left me alone, I felt something was wrong… someone was rebuking me that moment. I walked but the guilt feeling was still boggling me. I tried to rationalize what I did. I said to myself, “Well, it’s okay, you are very hungry and thirsty and that’s the last money you have.” Still feeling guilty, I said, “It’s okay, these poor kids today are too demanding and they do not deserve my help, don’t they have parents to deal with their needs?” I also said to myself, “Jesus said do not let other stumble on your account.” But the truth was, the boy just wanted the drink I was drinking. I wanted to go back then and give them all I bought from Wendy’s, but I could feel my stomach rumbling, I said, “Next time!”

I tried to forget that scene in my head. But when I reached home, after I drunk the soft drink, I found myself not fully eating the burger I’ve bought. So, I quickly opened my Bible because I was feeling that someone was rebuking me for what I did that night, and read:

Those who give to the poor will lack nothing,

but those who close their eyes to them receive many curses.

– Proverbs 28:27 (NIV)

Okay, that hit it! I was rebuked to the highest level. And what’s more, I’ve read this:

Whoever remains stiff-necked after many rebukes

will suddenly be destroyed–without remedy.

– Proverbs 29:1 (NIV)

I guiltily laughed at myself. I call myself a Christian but I forgot that Christ went down to heal the broken and meet the poor. And I was like ignoring the situation where I could extend myself to the poor. Because of this, my eyes were opened. I would not let myself be a stiff-necked Christian. I do not need many rebukes.

I am sharing this to you because maybe you have been in the same situation or maybe you happen to be in the situation like that. Life would give us a situation wherein we will be perplexed or be boggled. But remember, by praying and reading the Bible, God will tell you what to do, what you should not do, and what you should change with your attitude.

Honestly, I am happy more than boggled that night after the rebuking. Because I felt God and I felt He is reminding me of the things I need to do and not do. I am having a hard time being generous, because all I have today is from a hard-earned money but he reminded me to be generous always, as in always, for that pleases Him more greatly.

Happy long weekend to my Filipino friends out there! 🙂

The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman

Hi there fellow booknerds! Just so you know, this is not a book review. This post is all about my appreciation to Neil Gaiman’s book. This was my first time reading a Gaiman’s work and I absolutely loved it. What I love about this book is the unexpected turn of events and its ending. One word that best describes my feeling after reading this: SAD. Better read it and know what I am talking about. Oh, I also love Silas, Ms. Lupescu, Mr. & Mrs. Owens, all the graveyard folks and of course Bod the main character.

TheGraveyardBook_HardcoverPlease click here for Goodreads summary and review.

Here are my favorite quotes from the book:

  1. “It must be good,” said Silas, “to have somewhere that you belong. Somewhere that’s home.”
  2. “It’s like the people who believe they’ll be happy if they go and live somewhere else, but who learn it doesn’t work that way. Wherever you go, you take yourself with you.”
  3. “Things blossom in their time. They bud and bloom, blossom and fade. Everything in its time. Everything in its season.”
  4. “You’re alive, Bod. That means you have infinite potential. You can do anything, make anything, dream anything. If you change the world, the world will change. Potential. Once you’re dead, it’s gone. Over. You’ve made what you’ve made, dreamed your dream, written your name.”
  5. “You may be buried here, you may even walk. But that potential is finished.”
  6. “Fear is contagious. You can catch it. Sometimes all it takes is for someone to say that they’re scared for the fear to become real.”
  7. “the tongue is the most remarkable. For we use it both to taste our sweet wine and bitter poison, thus also do we utter words both sweet and sour with the same tongue. Go to her! Talk to her!”
  8. “If you dare nothing, then when the day is over, nothing is all you will have gained.”
  9. “People can change.”
  10. “Bod said, “I want to see life. I want to hold it in my hands. I want to leave a footprint on the sand of the desert island. I want to play football with people. I want,” he said, and then he paused and he thought. “I want everything.”
  11. “Face your life, its pain, its pleasure, leave no path untaken”
  12. There was a passport in his bag, money in his pocket. There was a smile dancing on his lips, although it was a wary smile, for the world is a bigger place than a little graveyard on a hill; and there would be dangers in it and mysteries, new friends to make, old friends to rediscover, mistakes to be made and many paths to be walked before he would, finally return to the graveyard or ride with the Lady on the broad back of her great stallion. But between now and then, there was life; and Bod walked into it with his eyes and his heart wide open.

I think that’s it. I am looking forward to reading more of Gaiman’s work. 🙂

Simply Grateful

Words have been my refuge the whole time of my existence. Even before I have realized my dream to be a writer, I have already written many poems to express myself. Even before I have realized the delight of reading novels, I have already read many academic books just for fun. I can truly say that my life has revolve around words. I cannot imagine this world without words, may it be written or in a form of speech. I am amazed how a single word can transform someone’s view; how a single word can affect a life; how a single word can give us something to think about, and; how words can create a world of its own but then still resonate with others.

Yes, words have that effect on me and I know most of you will also agree with me. Now, I am feeling grateful that words have become a part of me, a part of who I am, a part of the new world I am building. No, I am not YET a professional writer, I am far from that. However, I can now practice writing ‘officially’ in the company I am working with because I am tasked to be the “editor-in-chief” of the company’s newsletter. I am no longer have to endure doing the same stuff, now I am flexible, and the happy news is I am now one step to my dream career.

Why I am telling you this? Remember when I told you words can transform someone’s view? Yes, it’s true! I thought when I accepted this monotonous job of recruitment, I would be doing it for the whole time. I was anxious then, crying at night asking why do I need to be this fearful person? But yet, God has in store for me a greater responsibility… it is to communicate, encourage and let people see the beauty of life by means of writing. My view has been transformed. I am now grateful, contented, happy.

I am grateful to God for giving me the gift of encouragement through writing. I am grateful to God for giving the exact people I needed to flourish this gift… to my teachers in grade school and high school who had given me too many book reports, research papers and poetry writing assignments; to my Retorika (Rhetorics) professor who ignited my passion of writing, and; to my friend Ren, who introduced me to the world of blogging. I am grateful to God for giving me the exact experiences I needed… to the heartaches and heartbreaks which fueled my love of poetry; to the loss and forgotten friendship; to the oppression I had endured; to the depression and anxiety I had encountered, and; to the many mishaps of life.

I am simply grateful.


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She is

twirling dressShe is part of something momentous, of something special, of something grand.

She is half the surprise of a gift covered in a beauteous wrap.

She is the climax to a fair story, the voice of melancholy, the spirit of bliss.

She is a painting in disguise, an art deep inside.


She is the woman in a twirly dress, dancing around and tries to fly.

She is the wind striving to settle down, the rain that dares to stop, the sun that shines.

She is the tear drop, the genuine smile, the infinite laugh.

She is as timeless as a grandfather clock.


Yes, she is.

She is something. She is everything.

She is enchanting, amazing.

She is an idea made real. Yes, she is .



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Slow Down

Remind yourself to slow down. Yes, time is precious. You should value every second of it. But so as your life. When you keep on hurrying, you miss out so many beautiful creations and opportunities which are valuable in your journey to your purpose.

Remind yourself to be still. There are moments in life when all you need is to relax. Everything becomes chaotic when all you do is occupy yourself with superficial things.

Life is beautiful, don’t try to run from it. Dance with the wind. Listen carefully. Watch in all intent. Smell the fragrance of life. Give yourself a second chance to truly live. Live at the moment. Don’t run. Stop running. Enjoy every second, every minute, every hour of your life.

Slow down because strange and beautiful things might happen.

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Strange Things Will Happen, Soundtrack from The Fault in Our Stars

Beyond Thankful

Have you ever in a situation wherein you are feeling down and suddenly everything turn upside down? You never wish of anything but the fate has given you more than what you wish for.

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God has His own way of appreciating the lives of people. When we are in our lowest, God has His way of surprising us with abundance. When we are feeling detached of the world, God has His way of giving us thoughtful companions. When we are discontented, God has His way of supplying us more than what we ask for.

God said to Solomon, “Since this is your heart’s desire and you have not asked for wealth, possessions or honor, nor for the death of your enemies, and since you have not asked for a long life but for wisdom and knowledge to govern my people over whom I have made you king, therefore wisdom and knowledge will be given you. And I will also give you wealth, possessions and honor, such as no king who was before you ever had and none after you will have.” – 2 Chronicles 1:11,12

I am beyond thankful for everything God has given me. I am beyond thankful He has given me the most thoughtful friends and family. I am beyond thankful that I somewhat live His purpose, touching lives of people. I don’t know what I’ve done that I should deserve the treatment I am getting from the people surrounding me. What I know is this, when we are truly living in God’s abundant grace and love, everything (yes, everything) will fall right into its rightful places.