Have you ever felt that something is missing? A hole inside your soul? A missing piece in your life? Look at yourself now. What are the lies you are feeding yourself now?
I am not to preach how to fix the hole in your heart. But I am here to tell you my own hole(s).
Not good enough. I am not good enough. I cannot be good enough. I am dedicated but it seems to falter every now and then. I have courage but when faced by uncertainties, I concede one way or another. I have many dreams and goals when daydreaming, yet I am left with choosing the familiar. Why? Because I am not good enough for all these things. I am not worth it.
Whenever people around me praise me or acknowledge my mere existence, I don’t get excited. I feel that there are always hidden motives behind the sweet talk. Most of the time, I feel like they are just joking around to get my hopes up or to get me believe in myself again. Yes, I resent the idea of someone appreciating me or honoring my life. Why? I feel like I am not good enough for anyone or for anything. And I feel like life is just playing with my emotions.
I spent my whole life believing these lies. Why? Simple, believing these lies are more realistic than believing I can be the person I dreamed to be.
As I contemplate these things, I was shocked, all my life I believed in lies. In return, I discounted God’s promises to me and I carved a hole inside my heart.
Lies and promises. I am always swayed by lies. But today, I claim that God will fix the holes in my life, the lies I once believed and He will abundantly bless me with wisdom.
2 I say to the Lord, “You are my Lord;
apart from you I have no good thing.”